10 July 2022

But Adonai took me away from following the flock...(Amos 7:15)

this to me says he has called me to live out my faith boldly, completely trusting him to be my everything. he removed people, things, put dreams on hold, and had me learn to trust him. the struggle of doin' this as i learned how to be a single woman after 35+ yrs of marriage. the thoughts i have to take captive. the mind i have to retrain. the life i have to live without the one i married.

every step i take in the direction of healing and transformation proves my faith in Adonai. people r watching. i need to live fully yielded to my God. it is what i am called to do right now. this is prep time for my destiny. to walk with Adonai and know his voice above all the clamoring.

the struggles, meltdowns, loneliness r real. these need to happen so i can be empty enough for Adonai to fill me up with himself to walk out my destiny.

the words of Isaiah 43:18,19 rbein' made flesh. it's a process that hurts, is lonely at times, and makes one question God himself. but as i walk out the process, i find a rest i cannot explain. i find a peace that envelopes me. i have a joy unspeakable that leaks out thru it all. i have a hope that is rooted deep down and i keep movin' forward.