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the following r my thoughts on a scripture that has made a very large impact in  my life. i pray this often so i can let God clean out anything that keeps His passion from being made flesh in my life. i pray that it comes alive as u read it so u can be cleansed by the blood covering of Christ Jesus and silence the accuser.

Psalm 139:23-24 NASBS

[23] Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; [24] And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way.

remember to live a life surrendered to God. be open to God so He can make flesh His passion in my life.

"search me" ~ allow God to search thru the many rooms in my life. we all have at least one room that we keep hidden from everyone, even God.

this room is usually filled with the stuff that holds us back from really living. it definitely filters everything i do, say, think, and act out.

"know my heart" ~ find out who i am.

often times we don't really know who we r ourselves. and that comes from that one room we hide from everyone.

in order for us to know who we really r, God needs to search thru that room and remove everything that holds us back from finding out.

"try me" ~ make judgement on what God finds in me.

allow God to judge whether the stuff He finds is worth keeping or throwing out.

"know my anxious thoughts" ~ be willing to let God see how scared i really am.

my fears r real. all i have to go on is past experience which causes anxious thoughts. not knowing also causes this. however, surrendering to God these anxious thoughts opens me up to God's calming peace.

"see if there be any hurtful way in me" ~ am i out for revenge? do i want to 'get back at the one who caused me the hurt'?

God will expose this.

i need to be willing to forgive. forgiveness is the key that starts the healing of the hurt that holds us back. God will do only what i allow Him to do. it is up to me to let Him do what He does best.

now all that is needed is for u to "face the Judge", ask for the blood covering of the Lamb so He can render His verdict. once that is done, ask God to make flesh His passion in your life.

one other thing, prayer becomes much more real as u see God answering in ways u have not experienced before. it's becuz u have silenced the accuser in Court of Heaven.